Office Matter
Successfully joined my new workplace. First 2 weeks was quite strenuous. Too much to read and learn. In my previous job I was in the project management team, all I did was to schedule and plan for the things to happen. If things don't happen make a big outcry to the higher management. After 2 years of this work suddenly I decided to venture into design side where lot of designing and technical brain storming session goes on. I don't know if its a blessing or curse, I ended up getting a job like that. Its been 2 weeks into this job and all I can remember is how badly I am getting embarrassed everyday. They tried to involve me in some high level discussions and later realized that I don't fit there. Then one senior person in that group took initiative to train and teach me. Time to time he drops in by my cubicle and asks me some basic physics questions related to what the company does. The answer I have given him so far is always bullshit. He knows that very well. The same bullshitting I did for my university exams but managed to pull thru.
The guy is really trying his best to help me and bring me on par with the other technical pudingees(Pluckers) in the company. He is doing it for my own good all that crap I know but its kind of getting creeping me out. Where ever he sees me he asks some questions and my morale goes down. I don't know how to go upto him and tell him that I am not as dumb as he thinks, but to support my saying I really dont have anything to put forth to him. If it was my university, I would have put a sad scene infront of my lecturer and try to get his sympathy. Now I cannot do it, I cannot go upto my boss and say that I am cluless in my area of work. They are paying me for it, atleast I need to put up a face saying that I know it.
Entering the office is like entering the lab practicals and standing infront of the viva committee. NikKa vachu kelvi mela kelvi ketu paduthuraanga.
posted by Nutty @ 7:02 AM
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